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Thursday, 04 June 2009

  • Why oh why

    What? Last day of school? No way…it doesn’t feel like it, not at all. I’m probably too used to the feeling of pressure clinging to me every single day that I can’t live without it. DAMN, I’m weird. On the other hand, I’ve gotta say, time passed fast. You’d say, oh wow, what a trite saying. YES, I’m this cheesy, so what?

    Yet, I don’t feel relaxed at all. SAT this saturday, and ACT next saturday. Plus, I’ve been working my butt off lately, well, not all the time, but you know what i mean, people procrastinate. Just finished one practice test a few hours ago, the result was pretty promising: 2110. Besides, I randomly made up some score for the essay portion since I don’t know how to score my own paper thereby decided to not write it at all.

    Sorry, I feel the need to babble on and on and … on. My parents seem so uptight today, especially my dad. He was like: “oh, are you still gonna be able to finish the whole practice book for REVIEWING?” God forbid! It’s not called a review book, ok? It’s not like the more practice test I do, the higher score I will get on the actual test, they don’t have a direct proportional relationship. All it does it’s to help you get familiarized with the timing and various annoying rules. One thing I’m sure of is that I’m inevitably going to be stumped on and squished if i don’t get through all of it. Let’s wait and see, I’ll do my best. And for your records, that’s the best I can reach at the moment.

    Have to stop now, my eyeballs are not within my control right now. They tend to rotate freely as they please when I’m tired. Yikes, that came out weird. Just not as bad as you thought it would be, just figuratively speaking. My eyes just stink. I better hit the hay before 1 am, otherwise, I will be doomed tomorrow. A brand-new-cramming-for-SAT day awaiting me under the sunlight, like I really look forward to it…pssshh.

    Anyway, so much for the cynicalness (sp?) Wish me luck on both tests :)

Monday, 20 April 2009

  • I dream a dream

    I know the title seems a tiny bit hackneyed. But, long story short, everybody possesses his/her own dreams; they could just dwell in a nook of your heart, awaiting to be revealed someday.

    OK, so I am a junior in high school right now. Since I'm taking a couple pretty rigorous AP and honor classes, I would mostly consider myself a candidate for top-notch colleges. However, for the most part, I'm pretty scared to tell anyone of my dream about the future. I don't dare to let anybody know beforehand, as though it would be crushed before I know it. Moreover, I hate comparing myself with those smarty-pants around me, which is what I do all the time, but juxtaposing really takes away my hopes sometimes.

    Ever since the beginning of my junior year, I spent a large percent of my leisure time looking up all types of colleges I want to get in. I bought many test prep books. I even choose studying over sleeping sometimes for the sake of my GPA. But still, I'm afraid, afraid of someday, when I look back, I regret that I made this decision to work my tails off to get into prestigious colleges but ended up having my dreams NOT realized. Consequently, I always have conflict in myself from both sides to convince me to do this and that. Fortunately, I haven't given up on that.

    Therefore, I promise, I will work to my full potential to achieve my dream. Yay, it even sounds cheesy to me, the author. But oh well, you'll see.

Sunday, 15 February 2009

  • My whereabouts

    "Last updated on Dec 31, 2008"?
    What? where did I go? I never meant to stop updating blog anymore...

    Oh well, just a heads-up. I've always been around, however, i just never thought about posting a new entry for my rambling collection.

    Besides, I'd been extremely busy with my essay, tests, presentations and whatnot lately. To be honest, I never went to bad before 1AM for the last three weekdays. Therefore, I yearned for sleep deadly.

    fsjkalgjsdoagjiojake, yep, i gotta go...

Wednesday, 31 December 2008

  • Idyllic

    Definition for idyllic: charmingly simple

    This has not been an alien word to me for a long time. Because on a daily basis, as long as I get to spend some time skimming a book, this word would pop up into my sight. I wished from the bottom of my heart that someday, I myself would be able to live an idyllic life. This thought consistently reminds me of transcendentalism, of Thoreau, who kept his physical life as frugal as possible, but trying hard enriching his inner life.

    However, not until yesterday did I realize that my intepretation wasn't accurate. The word does not necessarily mean to merely represent not squandering in this case. It is more likely to stand for something more superior, such as a certain type of life-being in an atmosphere that we neither perfunctorily live through everyday as an unconditional routine, nor spend such precious time luxuriously but effortlessly. We need to aim for a goal, and appreciate time for the opportunities it gives us to accomplish the achievement with a tad bit of temerity.

    Everyday in my life is idyllic, as I cherish it all-heartily. Yes, it is that simple.

    *Yesterday was a huge success. I spent 3 and a half hours volunteering at the patient's library, since my supervisor wasn't here, even though she was expected to supposedly. During the 3.5 hours, I delivered magazines, books, and game consoles, like xbox and ps2. Everytime I received appreciation, I was on the top of the world. I totally enjoyed the process. Therefore, I decided to volunteer there, with staff members' warm welcome. I felt jubilant; I love being needed, and able to work my tail off. :)

    Happy new years!

Monday, 29 December 2008

  • Currently
    The Fame
    By Lady GaGa
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    A New Start

    By new start, what i actually meant is that here comes a new day. It may sound kind of funny when i express how i think about new day at this point, because it's already 2pm, which means half of a day has already gone by.

    Oh well. What i'm really stressed about right now is volunteering tomorrow in the hospital. I'm not saying how painfully hard and boring volunteering is, because is actually fun in essence. However, i'm scared because i will have the second interview with the staff member tomorrow, and settle up what position im gonna be doing for the future, which i'm still not sure. Dang it. Since i'm not picky about any department, contrary to my expectation, it becomes harder for me to select a place i could fit in.

    Besides, i can't predict whether i would be talkative or not. It largely depends on the listener, as far as i'm concerned. Because, my action would be carried out according to how the interviewer acts, looks and impresses. I never am willing to let other people think i'm cold, or nonchalant in a bad way. Ahh, why does it become so complex all of a sudden.

    Ummm... i guess i would need to take some more going over the hospital volunteering position chart. Hopefully i could be more certain later on. :)

    Wish me luck